Spring Break

Tomorrow is the last day of school, then we will be out for a week. I am so ready for a break. It has been raining here for two days, but we needed it badly. I won't pout about it to badly, lord knows we will get plenty of sunshine and warm very soon. This is Texas after all. On another note I haven't done much with this blog, and I have been playing with the idea of deleting this one and starting over. Maybe I need a new start before I get serious about blogging and linking to other blogs. Oh well, we shall see what tomorrow holds.

Please No!!

Well I fell asleep fairly early last night. I woke up around 11:15, so I thought I should go check on the oldest and make sure that he turned his tv off before he fell asleep, he did and was snoozing soundly. At around 12:00 I awoke to the sound of someone being sick, ohhhh no I thought to myself. Sure enough my oldest has a tummy bug. I HATE the tummy bug!!! So after being up with him most of the night, after I dropped the younger two off at school I ran to Walmart for supplies. I loaded up with every kind of disinfectant you can think of. I have been sterilizing everything this morning. I am keeping my fingers crossed that no one else in the family gets it,,,as I am usually one of the "takers" to anything I come in contact with.

It's been a while

I haven't blogged in quite sometime, to be honest I forgot my password. I almost started a whole new blog but I wanted back on this one so I could read all of the things that I already wrote. Weird I know, but through a lot of that time I didn't even remember some things that i had put down. I guess you could say time heals all wounds, not real sure about that though. We are approaching two years of moms passing and I am still "healing".

Anyways I am gonna give this blogging thing another try. From this point I really don't want this blog to be a death blog,,,more of a life blog. Life has been crazy fast since I last wrote. We just bought oldest boy ( now 15) a truck. He is taking drivers ed and I am not real crazy about his learning to drive in mine. Middle child (girl 13) has now hit that moody stage. It has been a little hard one me. She was the one who always wanted to do everything with me, if I had to go somewhere she always wanted to go. Now not so much, I guess cause I am "the parent"...Horrible I know, but teens can not be seen with a parent. Youngest boy(almost 10) is taller, but pretty much the same. He still tells me" mommy I love you". He LIVES outdoors, he is still my sweaty little boy, hope he stays that way. Hubby is starting to show some age lately lol. His attention span is very very short. I guess I should say that he is only 32, I made him sound 80 lol. He just acts like it some time. Well I guess I will end this novel for now, more later...

This and That

It seems like as soon as something ends in this house something else begins. track just ended and I was about to catch a break from having to pick my oldest up from practice everyday. Well the very next week after it ended starts cheer leading clinics, not to bad two days a week but oh wait daughter also throws in an after school band practice after school on Weds Lets not forget that baseball practice is about to start for youngest. Will it ever, ever slow down?

It's been a while...

Some time has passed yet again since my last post. I haven' picked my journal up in a long while as well. I think it's hard for me to put my feelings down sometimes. I just try really hard to ignore them. I feel like half of me is heeling and the other half is still mourning my loss. I do however intend to get up from this haze and find new meaning to my life. I do love my life, and have a lot of things that I am missing out on. I guess the big question is "HOW?" How can I make myself move forward?

Catching Up

Well it has been a while since I posted, a lot has happened. Mr. Man is taking a 2nd job. Only to put his name further out there. I know in the near future he will own his own business, just like he dreams of doing. Which means more work for me, but thats ok. He is now a CWI., to go with all of his welding background. My Dad is going to get married this month. That is very hard for me. I don't want him to be alone but, I am not real sure this one is for him. I guess he is a big boy and if he is making a mistake its his to make. It just makes me sad because with this lady I cant handle spending a lot of time with him. My poor kids are trying to be understanding, but they are learning to not to expect to see him a lot. That one kills me, because they have had enough loss in their life's. My dad has always been very very close to them, but this lady that he is marrying is having to raise her 3 grand kids so that pretty much pushes mine out the door. I guess we will adjust, the main thing is to not let myself slip back into depression. On another note my kids are growing up fast... Oldest boy now has a girlfriend that he spends time with, that is scary. I DO NOT want to become a grandmother, I now see how easy that can happen. We re being open with him, and trying to be strict with him about this. Middle girl has cheerleader tryouts next month, and her moody mouthiness isn't to far behind oldest. Youngest son is doing so much better in school and growing more everyday. If I can just keep him from turning into a teen it will be great lol. I better come outta my haze and fast because my kids are leaving me behind.

Saturday

Well it's Sat. that can be good or it can be bad. Saturday means everyone is home, that also means that they will all be bored. On Sat. it is kinda less stress, I guess.. I mean I only straighten the house, because it's gonna get really cleaned on Monday and at this point is starting to get a little cluttered. That being said I am starting to think that Sat. aren't all that great for me. I mean I end up being stressed because the house isn't perfect. Silly huh? I also find that I end up spending more time feeding people. The thing is during the week I only have to feed me,I can use the computer when ever no one is on it, I can read or watch a movie without being interrupted, I can even talk on the phone in peace, the house even stays clean cause I am the only one home. So I am thinking the summer is going to suck... Actually I know I should just enjoy it because before I know it the kids will all be gone. I will be crying then.