Some time has pased

Well some time has passed. I have tried to start healing, I am sure that I have. I really was just moving through a haze. Life is getting better, but I still have these moments hit me in the face and I am like "oh my God this is real and she really is gone." If I can keep my focus on other things besides what I watched her go through, or what she is missing with my kids, or how my Dad has changed so much, I do pretty OK. It's just been so hard. My mom was someone I usually spent most of my day with. I told her everything. When I was home in the evening we spoke on the phone a lot. I just miss her voice. If you still have your parents be sure to hug them.