Typing to myself!!!

I guess I will give this a shot, I mean after all who else do I have to talk to? My husband who's head is either in front of the TV or his x-box 360.....nah. My 13 year old son whom it kills if I just speak his name......nah.......... My 11 year old daughter who some how is always attached to my hip..........nah.......... Or maybe my 7 year old baby boy who only wants to talk about tractors or animals........nah.......... So um yeah the Internet sounds pretty good ! I guess I am just looking for a place to vent let go of some stuff ya know? I mean it doesnt matter if anyone reads this or not I am really very good about talking to myself so typing to myself shouldn't be to hard. Well just in case anyone reads this out of boredom I am 31 and I am very tired. More emotionally tired than anything else and I know that my poor husband is so tired of dealing with me that it is unreal. My whole perfect nothing ever happened world changed at the end of October last year. My mom took pneumonia and could not get better one thing led to another and it ended up being lung cancer. Ya did I mention that she is only 47? So I guess maybe I am in total shock. I jumped in and just started doing everything that I could to help out. I watch her go through so much pain and agony and I do it tear free. In front of her anyway. I am so scared and I am starting to really crumble I am having a hard time taking care of my family and house and hers to. She will not take help she is very stubborn so my dad and I or about the only ones who can help her. I have one younger brother who is just at a lost. He just started his own life and well he is the baby and has been sheltered I guess we both have. I guess I will stop there for now. Trust me there will be more. I am just full of junk.....